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The_Hamm
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Country: United States
State: Michigan
Metro: Lansing
Birthday: 4/17/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: Reading, Friends, Movies, Games, Sports: Soccer and Volleyball, Ice cream, Sleeping, Cards, Video Games, Massages, Gymnastics, Long Hair, Camp Barakel, Kids, Acting, Singing, Camping, Alias, Coloring, Gollum and The Lord of the Rings, Laughing, Boba Tea, Coffee, Guatemala, and Counseling
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
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AIM:  porknshrub
MSN: chasesach@hotmail.com
Member Since:
2/15/2005
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| Life is different away from college. I still do not know if I like it or if I am in fear of the world in which I was thrown. I miss my friends, I miss being an RA, I miss hanging out late at night, I miss ice cream runs, I miss everything college had to offer, yes I must admit I even miss homework. It was my life it was my ministry and I have been torn from it like hair from a waxed back. It hurts and stings and I'm still not sure why I left. Oh I wish I was still in school, is that a bad thing? I am asking myself this question everyday, did I do the right thing in leaving? Who knows the answer to this mindless question?.!
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| So I got back from an amazing trip to Cambodia. I was their 3 weeks and saw the beauty and pain of the country. So much hurt and corruption was hard to see. Holding aids orphans by the hand and seeing underage prostitutes being sold to me three times their age. It was horrible to see the atrocities around me. I am thankful for the experience thought it was hard to swallow some things. | | |
| So tonight is Halloween and 20-30 guys from my floor are all going to go out about in the neighborhoods to get candy from houses. DON'T tell us we are too old becuase we AREN'T. Most of us are dressing up as skanks and prositutes and the rest are the pimps and random things that couldnt find a costume or would not put on a dress. It is going to be a blast and Im totally hyped for it. Fun and candy two of my favorite things. | | |
| Sleepless nights have plagued me the past three sun's sleeping. Inklings pass through my head never tiring of their ceaseless rounds. Pushing open new passages to different ideas, that bring cascades of information clamboring down upon my brow. Nothing seems to give these thoughts time to slow down, ever pressing, ever moving no sign of relinqueshing their speed, only moving faster. What brings about this anteroge of thought, is it something I ingested or just some senior crisis I cannot wrap my mind around. Oh to sleep in stillness and in peace for one night this week. | | |
| Josh's funeral is in two days. It seems like I am still lost in some sort of dream. A bad dream that keeps going on and I cant wake up. Their is no end to the misery and sorrow in my heart. Will it ever rest or will I be stuck in this funk for eternity. Oh Josh, I miss you friend. All the laughs and fun we shared at camp. Seeing you in the littler girls bathing suit. LOL. Oh the memories. You will forever be a part of mine. See you someday. Your big bro. | | |
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